Friday, January 4, 2013
I got up real, real late, wow. I don’t know
what’s up, but I slept after midnight because of my sister begged me to watch
her favourite Japanese singer, Gackt’s movie. The name of that is Bunraku. That
was a cool movie. Anyway, the point is that she does not let me to have more
times for myself since I moved out from my own in 2010 due to my financial
problems. I really want to live alone so that I can get a quiet place which
there is nobody bother me. It is hard for me to live with my parents and my
sister because they really need me. Mother said that I can’t live alone. What
is her biggest point? I’m a woman and I don’t need them. I can take care of
myself. But I understand that Jehovah commands me comply the scripture at
Ephesians 6:1, 2. Well, I wish that I haven’t sharing with her in my 2009-10
financial situations. But, it is too late. I regret in the past that I did not
learn a lesson. If I haven’t sharing with Mother, then I don’t live with my
parents and sister in Tampa today. I’d lived in Rochester by myself (not in the
area of Bond’s home) today. But again, it is too late. Now on I need to move on
and suffer to go through with this tough time. I know that I can’t change the
past. It’s over. Past is past. Now I work on my depression that I struggle is
mindfulness skills which taught by my former therapist in Rochester. She is
professional therapist. I have subscribed her as she is still being my therapist.
Ok, my life is still working on how I deal with people who I know. I can’t wait
for Jehovah to end the drama. But He is a loving God. He teaches me how to love
Him and love His people despite they still be imperfect human. I currently do
God’s Word journal as a book report in what I learn. (John 17:3) I thank God
for the gifts, Bible and the people who hang out with me am not lonely. Also,
He made everything in the beginning of Genesis 1:1 since today I do see what
Jehovah did. It is impossible for men to do these.
Now time for me to go and tomorrow I’m going to
the house of Jehovah.
