The Raven: A New Dweller Story

Thursday, February 28, 2013

 I want to continue with the topic of Raven, the new dweller of Florida that I missed to write about for five days. Last Saturday, we went to Flea Market and we haven’t bought anything. Because of they are expensive now, unlikely before. We were satisfied looking around the things, that it. In food time, we ate hot dogs and later we ate BBQ chickens and other foods I do not remember but I remember I enjoyed these foods.

Last Sunday, I was staying in the house of Raven all day with Noki and the three dogs, Zoey, Papi, and other unsure name. Until evening time, we went out to the buffet and I saw the deaf family but I didn’t want to meet because these not look good to me. And because of never know if they will use me. But of course, everyone do the same thing because of no one is perfect and Jesus Christ had taught me how to keep practicing forgive anyone’s mistakes. Anyway, the food of buffet was delicious and the dessert was sweet and good. I enjoyed them.

Monday, we left Raven’s home for home. At first, we stopped by Columbus Plaza site. We ate in Chicken Church’s and shopped in Family Dollars. And then we went back home safety.  We had a nice time. 

Visit to Raven’s New Home

Friday, February 22, 2013

I left home for sleepover to Raven’s new dweller of Florida this weekend. I didn’t expect that Mother said so. Well, it seems okay to smooth out which is fine. Noki said to not bring a laptop because of the dogs and youths between ages 12 to 21. She is endured with her iPhone. Okay, fine with me. I bring without a laptop. When we got Raven’s home, there are no cats and other animals but the dogs are the only pet in this place. Yikes! I miss the cats but I’m happy to see the dogs again.

Today I finally rode the bicycle with my parents and the Raven without Noki, Nieliz, and Nate, Jr. have been not riding a bike since 2009. My legs are still hurt. If I use a bike daily, it will be better and cool. I miss riding a bike because it’s so fun and cool. I want to own a bike soon for my work and any place. It is not fun to stand outside and wait for the bus because my time is value which is precious. So, why worth’s wasting my time? Huh?

My Comment on Ladybird, Ladybird Movie

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Wow! I slept too much and I did not set up an alarm last night. It is because I thought it defaulted daily but not. I will have to do it myself every night. Okay, today we family was supposed to visit Ocala but we feel is not this time. However, we will visit there on maybe Thursday or Friday.

I imagine my niece is my daughter because she looks 

like me. 

Tonight I watched the movie called “Ladybird, Ladybird”. It was very emotional and dark about the “propaganda” British social service system. They said that if father is not a good father, the social workers with police will come to take the children away from the caring mother to the foster home. Wow! That must be wrong and ridiculous law. But it’s British law that the British citizen dwellers have to let them be.

I imagine myself of this movie. I could speak German. I could immigrate to Germany for the reason of my country is communist which not allow me to be safe in the future. Okay, when I saw a German single dad in pub, he sang a very beautiful sad song about his loss. He looked at me while sang and then after singing, he met me and I told him that I liked his beautiful song. He thanked me. A single dad wanted to get to know me. I introduced him in my open story and later in my life. He needed me to help him and pacify him. Thereafter a single dad told me his terrible story about losing his beautiful two daughters from two different women who are not a good mother. So these daughters were taken away by the German social service with policewomen. It was tough time for a single dad to keep battling on getting his two daughters back. So he went to custody court and lost the battle because of the false testify. Then later occurred to me again and a single dad after we got married, our two cute sons were taken away. It’s propaganda to disbelief that I am a good mother to my two sons; again another neighbour was using a false accusation against me and a single dad in the custody court. Smh. So a single dad was very angry, yelled, and cried against me for letting the German social workers with the policewomen be. I tried to soothe him but he continued to do that until I am finally said that calmed a single dad, “I’m going to kill myself because of they took my two cute boys away from Me.” a single dad came to hand my hand in a soothing way. Years later, finally, the German social service allowed me and a single dad to keep our new born daughter. How imagination me and a single dad were! But this time in my real life, it is not happening to me. Because of I’m still single and haven’t found a right man yet. So I enjoy myself while I’m single. It is good to know what happened in a sad movie, “Ladybird, Ladybird”. The good thing is that this cannot be happening in here America. A single mom have a right to take care of her children because of you see she love them. 

My Alarm Shake is working!

Monday, February 18, 2013

Finally, my new wake up alarm shake is really working! It makes me wake up on time. I woke up at 5am and did do something. I stretched my painful neck and shoulders. It works well and gone for few seconds. This lesson was taught by flexible therapists from outside of my area. I thanked them for that.

Today, I called dentists for making an appointment after I searched for my insurance that is accepted. I found one is accepted. Let’s see if it will not be unexpected.

My Life Issues

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Yesterday I did not write because of my fatigue issue. I was so exhausted. I hurried so much pressure to get ready for the service of my parents and then to my meeting. It is not so easy for me because of our times are different. I try my best to respect their time. Okay, Saturday’s first meeting, a brother came to visit my congregation from his Arizona for the talk. I actually don’t remember what his point really about. Because of it was not my mood to quote his talk on my notebook. It was too bad for me and therefore, I am feeling so tired. It was not a good thing, fatigue. I really need to have more energy to move my butt.

I want to discuss about last week Tuesday appointment. The new behavioural therapist is not mine because she does not fit my need. I need to have a better one like my old one but is really hard. Because of none find the right one but I keep searching. It is better to have as is helpful.

In last week Wednesday, my meeting view on 18-years old is still need to honour the parents no matter the age. They mean that to do what the parents want while they are overage 18. I disagree with that. We are not a little child. We not need parents. We are adult have a right to do whatever our rules we do. Why on earth do they have to control me? I’m sick of that religious thinking. They need to leave me alone. They know that to accept someone who is not interesting. But they still not listen. That is okay. I let them be.

I Got Alarm Shake and Bought Something in Wal-Mart

Friday, February 15, 2013

I got up at one. It was really late. The good thing is I got a wake up alarm shake from consumer counsellor today. I hope it will help me to have my day because of I hate to miss my day.

Thereafter, I went to Wal-Mart and purchased some items I need. I bought the underwear, thick panty (the decent one), cotton, socks, calendar (the permanent one), notepad, and white out. The total cost was € 33.33($44.59). And the tax paid € 2.18 ($2.92) by me. Wow! That’s lot money unlikely before. Before was cheaper. I wish the history is same but it always change every year. Oh, well. 

Will Be My First Psychiatrist Appointment

Monday, February 11, 2013

Tomorrow I go to my first time psychiatrist appointment in my new area, Tampa. I hope they will accept my health insurance not as dentist from last month tragic. I will bring all of my diary cards and this journal to share with my new therapist of what I had learned from my old therapist. Let’s see of what will happen tomorrow.

Tonight, I watched the two movies called “King of the Hill” and “Map of the Human Heart”. They told me the stories about a little boy was struggling to survive on his own and the Eskimo young man was sent to Montreal church school and had in a relationship with an Indian girl. What the heartfelt stories! 

My Family and I Hang out With Cuban Friends

Sunday, February 10, 2013

I hanged out with my parents and Cuban friends from their Spanish congregation in Pollo Tropical, park, food shopping and then to friend’s home for watching the movie. It was a great time. 

I have a problem with Instagram. They won’t let me add the pictures. They must be something wrong. So I went to click for help. Oh, it explains “This is usually related to your internet connection.” It frustrates me.

My Body

Saturday, February 9, 2013

I went to the meeting today and I felt sleepy. It was not my mood to go but I had to. This meeting is discussing about how to clean up from doing the bad things and how we are willing to not to belong ourselves. I never heard that phrase before. It seems to me that phrase don’t make sense. What sense is belonging to me is my body.

After meeting, I immediately needed to go home and get rest. Because of what my body tell me. But, my body is not happy because of I don’t eat well and not exercise. I had a bad eating today. My goodness-I tasted horrible on mozzarella cheese with white rice. It makes me about to throw up. I also have throated sore which causes by potential eating salty cracker. These were bad for me. I hope I better eating well for the next day.

Feel Better and Off the Insistence

Thursday, February 7, 2013

I got up at eleven in the morning. It seems to me that I feel better after missing many days. I ate good breakfast: egg sandwich with two Swiss cheeses and I drank apple juice. I also ate eight strawberries with whip after I went to the food shopping with my family. I wore the high heeling shoes. It was somewhat not a good idea. I mean that I did not feel hurt; I felt my balance was little bit off. Noki said, “You walk so stiff. You need to walk relax.” It is interesting for her saying that to me. I’m like okay, but she did not mean to offend me. She just advises me, that’s all. Okay, I try to do what Mother said about my look. She wants me to be perfect beautiful. But she should know that there is not a nice man out there for me.

Tonight, I watched the movie called “A Home of Our Own” is the story about a stubborn mother of her six children not needs anything because she preferred on her own. It is interesting to me. This is not what my meeting do except Shawn deny money, but sad that Bond do not do the same thing. She always says as demand to give out the exact amount of money and items. I don’t like that kind of behaviour she is. She needs to be enough. She should be satisfied to what she and other people have. However, this movie reminds me of the first book of Genesis explains that ‘Abraham wanted people to accept his gifts.’ It is expressly to what Bond needs to see me do that scripture. I will do, but I don’t like her insistence because it is not a good way.

Believe to Get Rest

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Tonight I did go to the meeting. The meeting was discussing on how we should do to keep working instead of rest. It is interesting. It does not seem to me that rest is anymore nor will they stay at home all the day. Should I be like that? Well, I think rest come out second when a person is feeling tired after work. Why on earth do the meeting have to judge me and judge other people? I believe God is the only one who has a right to judge the people. They can’t judge me and other people because they don’t know what we are supposed to stay in belief. It is not easy for me to match what they need me to do because of since Mother is still alive.

Terrible Story about a City of High Rate Crime

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Tonight I went to the meeting and sat down without participation but I did imitate the song that makes me feel okay.

After meeting, I was needed to leave quickly but my parents were still in Spanish meeting. I waited but to do something is chatting with brother and sister. I have a nice time. One brother, Dewayne shared his neighbour terrible story about a high rate crime. It’s really sad to hear the news. He is looking forward to the new system. Dewayne’s origin is from Memphis, Tennessee. I never visit there. He told me that city is nice and quiet than in Tampa.

I got home and did the video. I enjoyed it even though it’s challenge me.

I Watched the School Ties Movie

Friday, January 25, 2013

I got up real late. And I took a middle bath with my dreaming man. It took me long time to wait for the right man – 8 years! Wow! Well, I enjoy being single. But it is time for me to do research on how to find the right man. I read the Wiki How article about that and I made the report on my notebook. This will help me to get information about why I have to wait for the right man to come.

Yesterday, I woke up at six in the early morning and I took flexibility class only for reading and making the report. I did not do flexibility for few days but seem to me that I miss a lot. I have no idea of why I can’t have energy for waking up on time. My goal for this year is to wake up at five 0’clock in the early morning. Plus, I really need to have a good alarm that can wake me up on time. I can’t wait for that. I thought my consumer advisory is going to send it to me sooner but I have to wait and see.

Today is chilling with doing something. I watched the movie tonight. It is called “School Ties”. This story is about racism. The Catholic boy’s name is Charlie Dillon. He hates Jews so much, includes David Greene. David feels offended and causes him to make a war against Charlie. I know that Jehovah’s Witnesses are very different and are not allowing fighting with someone else. However, some members of that religion do involve vengeance and they did hurt my feeling so much. I have bad experience with them. It is a long story to tell you. I’m not going to post that. Anyway, that movie is sad and I thank it for making that movie to share the audience.

Okay, I need to go now. I hope God is my side. 

My Financial Situation

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I woke up at 5:56am. I had a good alarm in upstairs renting room of Bond’s house. It charges me €149.50. So maybe the next alarm that my consumer advisor intends to pay it for me will be good as I hope.

Today I had the welfare appointment with my sister. This appointment is about how to apply a job. A case worker gave me the employment site. Okay, I did it but I have not fill out the survey yet. I will do it soon.

After appointment, I went to the bank and deposited €14.95 and I ordered checks for the reason of paying a rent and some other expenses.

Watching the Shoplifting Animals and Making of Express Myself Music Video

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Today I did not go to the meeting because of I was overslept. Okay, I watched the shoplifting animals. I learned that animals right now will not get to the paradise God promised. Because animals are animals and are not humans, but God will give us good humans the new animals in paradise He promised us. Hopefully soon, I will pet my favourite wild cat, the lion. It's still cute.

Today I worked on editing and producing ASL Music Video of Express Myself. It looks better to me but one thing is I miss to sing one word in this song is “wing”. Aw, but I think it will be okay. Next time I learn a lesson is to stay calm and accept more times with my family.

The Raven Couple Visits and Audiologist Appointment

Friday, January 18, 2013

Yesterday, the Raven Couple came to visit us and stayed sleepover for one night. We chatted, we ate, and we went out to the mall. That was a nice time. And today they left for home to Buffalo. They will live in thirty minutes from Tampa soon.

Today I had audiologist appointment with my parents. Audiology is not bad but I have to pay € 4.48 for the battery of hearing aids. Hmm, maybe I will try again finding the right audiology that accepts to give me the battery for free.

I Contacted Coast Dental and Job Coach

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Today I contacted Coast Dental real late about what happened and why they said they accepted my health insurance card from last week Tuesday. They explained they accepted the Liberty card. They do accept it. Oh, I’m so piss off but I stay relaxed and told them that I understand. But, that is so wrong. I forwarded the conversation between me and Coast Dental to my agent, Marie. Marie was not happy about that. She ordered me to make a schedule with another agent. She trusts him. Sure I will. Okay. Second, I contacted the job coach about that I need to apply a local bakery job for opportunity as soon as possible. Let’s see of what their reaction is to me.

I exercised with my family in our apartment office’s gym. I got a lot sweat with hearing my favourite music on. My heart rate is over 100. That is good. I worked hard and so do flexibility. Okay, time for me to go. Thanks for reading. Yours, Loi

How I Feel about Preaching Day and I Watched the Two Movies

Sunday, January 13, 2013

I went out to preach with Pudding and Jaz at 10am. It was not my mood to go, but I did. I’d like to learn more about preaching and what evidence on it schedule. It is interesting to preach everyday which I thought about every Saturday but is not.

I arrived to home at about 3:15pm and I took a brief nap for about thirty minutes and then I did something. I watched the two 1992 movies are “Glengarry Glen Ross” and “Hoffa”. These are crimes and are based on a true story. “Glengarry Glen Ross” is talking about burglary came to the company and stole all the telephones. And “Hoffa” is talking about the truck leader and he convicted to fraud.

Okay, time for me to go. And thanks for reading. Yours, Loiriam

Try My Best to Match

Saturday, January 12, 2013

I got up at 5:35am and went back to the flexible fitness again. It still challenges me and is new. Ok, I was trying my best to leave home for meeting earlier. Because Father needed to meet the service at 9:30am and my meeting at 10am. It’s hard for me. I wish his elder can postpone to 10am but I respect his decision.

In meeting, the brother explains about how people find happiness and satisfaction. Like the money don’t make them happy. And I also need to remember the scripture at Acts 20:35. I was always happy to receive the gifts and now I know that I give out to people make me happy.

After meeting, I went out to the restaurant; the special is called the Sweet Tomatoes with brothers and sisters. The food was good and healthy. I enjoyed it. Thank you for that.