Need a Job to Pay Off the Debts

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

There is a reason why I have to go back to work because of my congregation need money for gas, printing materials, and other things. I still not hear from a job. Maybe I have to write a follow up letter soon. I really need a job to pay off the debts. There is no emotional economy recovery. This won’t let me to have the cool things because of I cannot afford. For example, I want to visit to Australia and England. I wish I have the good money for traveling around the world. The only problem is if I have that money and want to go to Europe, then who will I go with? But I can join the tour group as I hope so! I do not want to feel hopeless. I want to be happy and have a simple life.

Tonight Bond approached me and told me that where she lives is not her own home. She has to pay the government. Bond has been living there for twenty years. She does not receive tax earnings yet. That is why I have to owe her every month. That is suck. Also, Bond told me that she gave me two months’ rent free. I told her that it is not right for her to force me to give my brother a thousand dollars. And she said, “Too late.” She does not want me to live suffer with the home of my brother. If I do not give him that money, he will separate from me. Oh, Bond. I think she needs a financial counselor for about her money problem. She lost lot money from her immature ex-husband and her two brothers. That is sad for her. 

Hope to Hear From University of Rochester Job

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Yesterday, I went to the University of Rochester and I applied for a job. I hope to get a job soon. But I have not heard from there today. Let’s try tomorrow and see if I can hear from there.

Force Me to Owe Back

Friday, July 29, 2011

I did not write on this blog for few days because of I was busy with other stuff. Okay, now I discuss about last week Wednesday night with two elders. One elder doubt me about a female dog uses me for money. Yes, she is. Because of she does not apply Exodus 20:17. I am so tired of her not listening to me. She forces me to owe her € 326.66 without displaying me the receipt. Other elder asked me to promise her to owe her. He really misunderstood. She forces me. I told him that she yelled at me, “You have to owe me back!” but he off my point and asked me if I promise her to owe her back. I don’t know how this religious judgment system really works for those two elders. I think I will not have to worry about them. Jah will take care of me.

My Confusion

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Two days ago, I was playing in the cold water with the little children outside the townhouse. It was so much fun! But the security guard blocked it and said, “You all will go to the jail.” Ha! Does that happen? It won’t. Silly! We all have a deadly feeling of the heat wave. I watched the Chicago News about a 71 years old woman had no air conditioner and was feeling the heat wave in her house by the late of 1970’s when she was 39 years old. She is now dead at the age of 71. That was so sad. I wish I have air conditioner. I cannot live without it. But my therapist suggested me of why not use the two fans for cheap. Well, this won’t happen to me because of I’m always feeling hot. In the past when I was a teenager, I was always feeling cold. But now I’m 27, my age is changed as my body. I’m a woman now. So I’m no more being a teenage girl.

The elders are startled with me for urging me to go to their meeting regularly. I’m disappointed because of that kind of belief is mixed up. For example, one person said, “You don’t need a job.” The other said, “Yes, you need a job.” That confused me. Which one?!  And it is really interested to me. I prefer to follow the Christ. Because when I read the Bible, some action and story is not match. For example, Jesus works over the Sabbath day. It means that I am supposed to keep a job but I had to resign because of the elders said its wrong time. That confused me. Maybe I’m wrong about Sabbath day but I will research more about that.

I Have to Suffer With My Health Situation :(

Monday, July 18, 2011

Last night, I was feeling so hot and uncomfortable. I need air conditioner, but I have one fan in my bedroom and it stills not enough. I have to suffer it.

This early morning, I felt hurt from my stomach and I went to the bathroom…sick! And then I went back to sleep but I could not. Because of it is still heat in my bedroom.

I don’t feel well today. My mouth and my body are sick. I stay at home all day which is not good for me and because of too much hot and pollution. I need the air to go out and keep me fresh.

Today I met Alana for teaching her ASL in the library. Despite my health, I teach her ASL. What I taught Alana today is to sign “the World”, for example, America, England, and France. She needs to practice with that hand sign every day.

I'm Very Sick :(

Friday, July 15, 2011

Today is I am very sick. The cause of that sickness is a lot of sneezes, sinuses, and throat sore. I’m trying to get enough sleep and drink a lot of liquids. But I can’t help myself to fight for it. I always do with the laptop stuff which I’m addicted and I can’t stop. God, what is wrong with me? When I’m saying right, I should apply it. So the laptop is not giving me a life to do. So I’m learning to have time limited for using the laptop. And do something in the house, exercise, and eat properly. 

Lady Boat

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I went to the lady boat. It charges me $17.00. I enjoyed that beautiful view. And I was with the senior friends and the little kids.

Hurry Up and Get Appointment At 9

Monday, May 9, 2011

This morning, I woke up so late and was so pressure to hurry up at 7:36 bus to get to the welfare office at nine o’clock. I felt like it is not my mood to go but I need to go for review and update my background information. I was not ready to go and so I was so worried about where was an appointment statement but I found in folder. Whew!

Oh, My God!

Thursday, April 29, 2011

I was hungry and I decided to go to McDonald’s and eat there. But before that, I needed twenty bucks. So I went to the bank and withdraw it. Oh, my God! I forget to take the receipt out and check my account to make sure it is secured. I’m worried if a man will steal my money. But when I check my account online, it remains the same income. I hope it should be alright.

After McDonald’s, I went to the Central Library and then to Rite Aid for the need of medicine. When it’s done, oh, my God, I missed the bus twice times and I’m really mad. Because of these times I do not have. This gives me a spiritual sick. God!

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Sunday, April 24, 2011

I went out to the service for very brief. There is a deaf woman that LoriZ’s friend or someone else in his English congregation found. I pressed the doorbell button three times and she was not home. So I placed the magazine, “Would You Like to know the Truth?” in the door. And then LoriZ and I left Detroit for going home and we stopped by the two security guard inspections, one restaurant, and public restrooms.

Finally, I got home safety at ten o’clock in the late night. And I felt so exhausted. 

In Circuit AH

Saturday, April 23, 2011

I went to the Circuit AH on time. Whew! I was not a mood to hear all day talks but I tried to pay attention. I used the gum to chew which help me focus on the main point. I like the point is that Jehovah is important for all people that He cares. The people are limit with supporting to each other. Because of they are human being and are not perfect. But God is not a human being. And this is what the scripture 1 Corinthians 3:5-7 says. In during that day, I wore the sunglasses to make sure that the people are not to stare at me. Also, during lunchtime, one woman was a little bit upset with me when I tried to reserve a seat for LoriZ but LoriZ could not found me. So that is her strange way. The other woman from Cleveland joined me for urging me. She looks Puerto Rican to me, but she is French Canadian, Irish, English, German, and Israeli. She wants me to be a Pioneer. However, I’m not really interested in that religious subject. I’m really interesting in balance of my schedule, some preach, work, and entertainment, that it. Pioneer requires to working a part-time job and live simple, okay. 

In Cranbrook Institute of Science Museum

Friday, April 22, 2011

I went to Cranbrook Institute of Science Museum today with LoriZ and her friend includes three children. We looked around the beautiful old houses. I paid $16.50 for entering Planetarium, and lunch charged me $5.83. At lunchtime, I did not like the worker’s attitude. She was not patient with my decision. That is her life. It is strange to see the bad economic today, the workers are mad at the unemployed customers. This does not make sense to me. But no matter what, in Planetarium, I breathed, relaxed, and enjoyed observing the nature.

Note: These people in the photo are needed to be

private and respect.

After Cranbrook Institute of Science Museum and LoriZ’s friend’s home, we went to the Chinese restaurant. We discussed about romance. Oh, Rick is an elder that question me about my romantic poetry that LoriZ informed him. I wish that she need to shut her mouth but I open to share with him. And this show respect Jehovah who give me an elder for protection. And after that, we women and the girls went to the mall and I bought the good sunglasses for soon summer time.

A Trip to Detroit

Thursday, April 21, 2011

I feel so tired and I’m not a mood to go to Detroit today. Because last night I was so busy and I couldn’t sleep until two o’clock in the morning. But I had to leave home for making sure that LoriZ is not feeling disappointed. She was supposed to be on time at eight o’clock in the morning but her problems were there because no one taking care of her mother.

On the way to Detroit, I was alone with LoriZ and I have no one to support me care for LoriZ. So I feel the load of responsible and painful because LoriZ need to get something from the back of her car. This disappointed me. It was a serious situation but I have to let the women have their lives to do.

We arrived to the house of LoriZ’s friends, the couple and their children at 10:10pm. I need to sleep now! Have a good night. Yours, Loi

Why Against Exodus 20:17? :(

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Today I have a large errand for Detroit. I have a lot clothes task to finish. Plus, lot things to do in my bedroom and around my townhouse. It was so heavy duty and nobody help me to finish the work. I did text to almost all of my contact lists and they ignore my quote, “Today is a bad economy and people are no longer support each other. They are self-dependent. This is sad. Is that right?” but one person did respond and suggested me to ask myself, “Hmmm, maybe you ask yourself, do I receive any help from others? Or am I completely independent?” then later on after that time, one of the couple asked me of how I am doing. And I described them with my sadness and it discussed about that my previous landlord used me for money. She should have satisfied with me renting her home and I have no idea why she wants to add charges me for gas and some other things she want. This is against the scriptures Exodus 20:17. But sadly, that married couple did not comment about that scripture. That’s so fine with me. I respect their religious belief. As maybe if Jesus Christ use Exodus 20:17, then that is good thing for them to respect my money. But I get confused with what their view on money is. Really, that is my fault of not studying the Bible detail. If I study the Bible every day, then Jehovah helps me to stay peace with that landlord, the married couple, the congregation, and people in the world.

I Started...

Monday, April 18, 2011

I started to take a Bible Study by myself. And I contacted some of people about the truth. And I started to contact my friend explains that miss chatting with her and hopefully we plan to go out to the café soon after I come home from Detroit.

Memorial Day on Sunday Night Was So Touching

Sunday, April 17, 2011

I went to the Memorial for honoring the Death of Jesus Christ tonight. It was so touching and I need to think about how to apply an excellent example of him. I thank God that He gave us His Son Jesus Christ to forgive our sin.

Return a Worthless Item and Get Refund

Monday, April 11, 2011

I woke up very early in the morning for returning Flip HD camcorder to Walmart and I got refund. Then I went to the mall for rest little bit and sat down outside the mall and waited for the bus at 9:13am. I observed a man repairs the truck. Also, I saw the white seagull. The bus was here to take me to the bank and deposited my refund cash.

After bank, I had to walk all the way to Sal’s house for preaching group at ten 0’clock in the morning. It burns my feet. I joined Betty, LGirl, and Jen for inviting the deaf to visit to the Memorial on next Sunday.

Ignore Someone’s Need Is Not Good

Saturday, April 9, 2011

I missed the first bus and I had to wait for the next bus because of I was getting up very late. I texted Bond, “I will arrive KH very late at 2:45. It is sad. But that is my problem.” and she responded, “Better to come late than to miss the meeting. We need Jehovah and each other. See you soon.” Then I forwarded to my mother and she told me that Bond did not answer her and do not care about my transportation needs. Bond is not like a sister to me. She never change her way. But I let her life to do. I always suffer with Bond using me for money and while I lived with her home.

After meeting, LoriZ discussed about a plan for Detroit. She needs seventy dollars for her gas. Wow, that a lot money. I only have fifty dollars in my bank but I will return Flip HD camcorder tomorrow because of today I have no time to go to Wal-Mart. I visited her mother’s house for care, chat, dinner, healthy crispy apple dessert, and Pictionary game. That game is new to me. I like it. I have a good time with her family and her sister-in-law’s parents. 

Bad Day with Hearings That Misunderstood Me :(

Friday, April 8, 2011

After I dropped my sister off to school, I went to Wegmans and I bought a breakfast sandwich but I did not get a drink because of a worker was tired of not understand what I was trying to say. I was a little bit upset, but that is her life. However, when I’m done eating, I went ahead and grabbed a drink. And then I went to the library but it was not open until twelve o’clock in the afternoon. I was said, “Oh, my God.” Fine, I decided to walk all the way to Walmart and I thought I could get Flip HD camcorder for free. But I had to pay it. I was so mad. Before I did checkout online and said, “Store pickup-free.”

After Walmart and the mall, I went back home and I called Walmart manager complaint about that situation but she did not understand me. So I forget it and decided to return Flip HD camcorder and get refund tomorrow. Because of I have to have that money for Detroit. I know that LoriZ does not have money though. 

Guilty About Against "Marry Only in the Lord"

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Today I felt guilty about that I went out alone with a man after a Career Fair to his home. This is against the scripture. The scripture says, “Marry only in the Lord.” This means that any man who believes in Jehovah like I do can go ahead and marry me. Interesting to that man saying, “You and woman go out and have fun thing to do is really lesbian. But if you go with me, that is not a homosexuality. Because of I believe that a woman have no power to protect you. But a man can protect you. If you have him, you will be successful.” After I had said “NO” to him, I left him. And he said, “I get lost.” I walked to the downtown bus stop area with my shameful feeling. And I have no idea of why I have to ride a bus with the public men who really want me. While I wait for the bus to home, I noticed that a woman snapshotted me. It’s strange. I do not know who she is. What did I do to her? Did I make her wrong? Am I a bad woman? I don’t get it. What the hell wrong with the world? And what wrong with the men who really want me? They’re not in Jehovah. God damn this world!

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Monday, April 4, 2011

I woke up very early in the morning and I dropped my sister to school successfully. I felt tired. I went back home and took some rest with my computer. And then to Laser America Clinic at 12:30pm, but I dropped out because of they do not approve my welfare card. 

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Sunday, April 3, 2011

I went to the meeting today with my parents. The talk discussed about we need to inform people in the world to hear the warning news. If they don’t want to listen, then their life is lost. The new world is coming soon. Read the two key scriptures Revelation 11:15-18 and Psalms 2:1-7.

After meeting, I helped my mother to prepare for the supper. And then I watched half scene of the movie “Un Coeur En Hiver” again with the distraction of my sister. She is worrying about her school tomorrow. She does not want to get lost as she really needs to know which the right bus is. 

Buy a Bus Pass and Watch “Un Coeur En Hiver” movie

Friday, April 1, 2011

After my counselor, I went to the bus station and I bought a bus pass. And then I went to buy food in Wilson Farms for lunch and dinner. I was exhausted. I just ate my lunch.

Tonight I watched “Un Coeur En Hiver” movie. The violin was lovely. But the relationship is odd and is very complicated. I may watch that movie again for reviewing the point. And I learned some new French words.

I Will Move to the New Congregation

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I supposed to go to Laser America Clinic at twelve o’clock in afternoon but the bus driver gave me the wrong direction. He thought that it was in Social Service office. But I see it is 111 Westfall Rd. well, I can figure out which is the right bus for Laser America Clinic by myself.

In meeting, a spiritual brother discussed about a plan for our ASL Henrietta Congregation to move to Arnett or Genesee. Sadly, many deaf people who live outside the city of Rochester can’t come to the meeting because of that area is not safe. And plus, they do not have faith in Jehovah. I know that it is hard for them to trust Jehovah. As Sal explained about the group is still same since 2007.

After meeting, I was almost had no ride to home. I did not expect Trisha to come and join the Sabado family’s car. Sadly, her deaf mother, Lori was announced today is becoming ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses. Lori is a driver. She always go to the meeting with Trisha and her other kids. But eventually, she started to stop attending to the meeting since after her older daughter Vanessa was announced to become ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses on July 2009. It is not so easy for me to find a ride because many of spiritual brothers and sisters who have a driver’s license and a car don’t live near my home, only one Sabado family, that it. But luckily, it was workout for the Zecchino couple to accept taking Trisha to her home. I arrived home very late. And I had to accept it.

Get the Clothes Done and Try to Apply ABVI-Goodwill Job

Monday, March 28, 2011

After the old-fashioned picture done last night, I went to the Laundromat with my mother and my cousin’s boyfriend. We all worked hard to get the clothes done. We felt tired.

This afternoon, I had to meet PRIDE in Tim Horton for opening job offering. It is ABVI-Goodwill. I tried to write a cover letter. It is not easy for me to do. But if I practice more, then later on I will get used it.

My Old-Fashioned Family Picture

Sunday, March 27, 2011

My sister and I took two buses to our parents’ Spanish meeting at 1:15pm for the old-fashioned picture of Kmart in plaza. It would be at 5:30pm and the price was five dollars fee with only cash. Before that picture, we came to visit to my brother and his roommates’ house for his special dinner of wedding requested. My brother was nervous to propose his girlfriend. I still be a celibate woman because of some of my relatives view me as a wrong woman to the men. Well, I’m not ready for a man. Anyway, I enjoyed petting their dogs. Its soft and the colors are black, white, tan, and brown.

On the way to Kmart, my mother was supposed to stop at my bank for withdrawal the cash but she forgot. So my sister and I had to rush to get there. And my mother was missing to grab us to the bank. Oh, well. 

“Reach Out for the Real Life” talks Touch Me

Saturday, March 26, 2011

I went to the meeting today. There is some good talk subject is “Reach Out for the Real Life.”

What is the thrilling event means to you? people in the world have their own opinions such like some think that the bar is fun, some think that having sex with different people is fun, and some think that work for over hours and earn a lot money can make the family happy. Like right now most people need money for surviving. But money is not making you happy it’s worthless because you have God in your life. You do not need to worry about not having money. You just keep faith in Him and He will bless you.

After meeting, I associated with spiritual brotherhood. And I also met a brother who gave us a talk today with his wife and a male student from Rome, New York. They were nice to me. His talk is touching me. I try to keep my faith and think positive for my future life forever. And I try to keep looking forward to see my grandmother and perhaps Amy Weber again.

After association, I went to Sacks’ house for dinner, watching a free travel video, showing us the pictures and the videos, and chatting. I had a good time. The Sacks couples are nice and love to laugh with me.

Eat Sbarro in the Mall

Friday, March 25, 2011

I left home for Greece Ridge Mall at four o’clock in the evening. When we arrived there, we ordered Sbarro. I ordered the two spinach/broccoli bread and apple juice and the cost was $11.96. It’s expensive that we cannot eat the money. Well, we enjoyed eating in Sbarro and we got full. That food taste good.

After Sbarro, we walked and looked around the multiply stores in mall that we would like to enter. My sister and I bought very cheap underwear at Rue21. It is 99 cent. We love Rue21!

Enjoy Playing with the Dogs

 

Thursday, March 24, 2011

During the day, I observed the pictures of my family and my niece with relaxation and drinking the water. Tonight my brother, his girlfriend, and their friends, the partners and roommates, and EMJ came to visit our home with their dogs for setting up a new network to make sure that no one is stealing our private information. I enjoyed playing with their dogs. The names of their dogs are Ocho, Yoshi, Mocha, and Mochita. They are all cute. The types of dogs are pit-bull, German shepherd, Boston boxer, and Chihuahua. I helped my mother to bake the chickens and make the Greek and Italian salad. All of us love to eat them! Plus, we ordered the pizza.

After we ate, I had to wash the dishes. And all of them left our home with their dogs as saying good night. 

What’s My Day?

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I woke up at seven o’clock this morning and I got ready for DBT class.

On the way to home, while I took a second bus, I felt annoyed about a man. He sat down with me. He is not supposed to sit down with me. I told him to sit another seat. He never takes care of himself. The reason is lack of hygiene. Also, his clothes are like homeless to me. This can affect me get sick. He is currently living in manor tower. I cannot wait to take my family and move out from where we live now.

When I got home, I took a shower first, and then I took a nap. Tonight I tried to film myself perform “My Rock” poetic video in ASL but my Windows 7 deny Movie Maker. Geez, well, I’m going to save some money for Flip HD camera. 

Return the 2 Items to Goodwill, Go to the Library and Enjoy Starbucks

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I went out to Goodwill this morning and I returned the two items. And I received the gift card from the cashier. I left that store for walking in twenty minutes with blowing and breathing until I stopped at the bus stop area. Then, I was waiting for another twenty minutes for the bus to come to pick me up. The bus was finally here!

I visited to the library for using computer and borrowed the French movie called “Un Coeur en Hiver”. I will watch it soon. And I printed five entries and two poems and those are charging me one dollar and five cent.

After library, I went to Starbucks by myself again. I drank a warm Latte Vanilla. It tastes like creamy. And I ate the cinnamon scone. I enjoyed the day at Starbucks. I also reviewed my printing papers from the library.

I got home, I felt tired and I took some nap. My family is here. I helped my sister to set up her bed. And she thanked me. 

Listening to the Music of Selena

Monday, March 21, 2011

Today is dark and I do not feel like go out. I just stay at home. I did plan to go to Goodwill store and library, but not now. At home, I was working on typing the spiritual talk that I quoted on my notebook and I posted it on Triond. I also posted my new poem on Poetrypoem.com. And so, I won’t get boring. I listened to the music of Selena. She was singing so pure and beautiful. It is really sad to see that she had left the earth in 1995 at the age of 23. Maybe someday she will be called by Jah to wake up from death. Hope to see Selena again in the bright future.

RIP Selena *1971-1995* :(

Eat In Old Country Buffet with my Family

Sunday, March 20, 2011

My family and I all went out to Old Country Buffet together for dinner. The dinner and desert were delicious. And we saw many Sunday Baptist group came to that buffet for special dinner. I also noticed the workers were very busy to do for us customers. And they are very tired but continue to work with patience. Just like what the scriptures and PRIDE say, “Do not be lazy.”

After dinner, we all went out to Goodwill and I did not expect to bring the clothes back like the one that I bought for last Wednesday meeting night. Tomorrow I will have to go there again by myself.

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Saturday, March 19, 2011

I did not go to the meeting today. Because of it is not easy for me to get to the meeting by myself due to the transportation problem. But the good news is going to move to another new meeting place as easy to get there. If the city hall approves, let’s hope.

I visited to my cousin’s home for brief. No dinner serve there, also, the movie was disgusting. It is all about homosexuality and sex. If felt guilty that I laughed. I was not supposed to watch that but I left while the movie was not done.

Tonight I wrote the new lyrics. The name of these are “I/I Don’t Get the Word” and “Say Here” I played the word in English and French. The language is beautiful to say. Without the language, we do not talk. 

Add to References and Follow Up Note?

Friday, March 18, 2011

I went to PRIDE and picked the references and follow up note up. I thought that it, however. PRIDE told me that I have to call the former employers and ask if they can be a reference for me. I hate to do that. Although, I never have experience with that when I was in high school. I just heard of doing an application, a cover letter, and a resume, that it. But PRIDE taught me additionally the very detail. She explained the reason why the new employer is not accepting the unorganized submission. I went back home for lunch and made the calls to the companies but some left a message. How can I reach them? I found another way to reach them. Let’s see of how work it is. 

Explained to PRIDE About What Happened at Olive Garden

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Today is not my mood to go out. The reason is my shoulder is still hurt. However, I have to be there for PRIDE. But I got there very late almost one o’clock this noon. PRIDE asked me of how I was doing at Olive Garden. I explained my confident issue situation to her about not having confident to leave a cover letter, resume and reference letter stuff but I left an application only. I also told PRIDE that a hostess chosen only an application. And I did not ask why just an application is. PRIDE encouraged me to build up my confident. She can’t help me unless she did not know what happened to me and hostess yesterday at Olive Garden.

In hospital, I was getting lost as I did not remember where I met my counselor today. But the staff guided me to get to a room of my counselor. It’s grateful. 

My Heavy PRIDE Homework

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Last night, I was over working for the PRIDE until four o’clock this morning. That time I went to sleep until alarm was rang at seven o’clock. However, I returned to sleep because of three hours were not enough for me to sleep. I feel so bad that I miss the DBT class today. I will be ready for the next time.

What did the PRIDE do to me? She gave me a heavy homework is to do the references in word document, make the five reasons of why I left a job, and search for five job opportunities. And then when I’m all done with this homework, I emailed her. Today noon, I met PRIDE. She was correcting my five reasons of leaving job homework. And then I went to Olive Garden and I dropped an application. That time I was not confident about leaving a cover letter, resume, and reference letter stuff. Because the hostess picked up only an application and then she would give it to the hired manager. And I did not ask why not cover letter, resume and reference letter stuff, too.

After I left Olive Garden, I went to Starbucks for taking a break. This remind me of a cute Korean drama called “Coffee Prince.” The genres of this drama are Romance and Comedy. Anyway, I felt slight relax and enjoyed seeing the company of other people as a friend. I was alone with no friend in Starbucks.

When my break was done, I went to Goodwill and bought the dress for meeting because of I was not home for all day. I was carrying the heavy backpack by myself. My shoulders are hurt. Life is not so easy when I am not in a car. I have to take a bus by myself.